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Crestfallen & a Few of My Other Friends

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It’s nothing amazing, really. It’s blatantly clear – Ron Paul is the Lady Gaga of politics, stealing things and ideas and making people believe he’s original. Like Gaga did with the gay community, Paul is working the disenfranchised. He’s one “born that way” comment away from wearing a meat suit. And it’s not surprising that the backlash of insulting the lush politician comes in threefold – after all, it was  vegan group at my alma mater that stated that “People don’t like it when they’re told they’re living the wrong way.” It’s almost as if the Paul-bots (as oppose to the GOP term, Obama Zombies)  have put their common sense and decency in abeyance. Because Paul is money. He’s the guy who’ll figure out how to fix this broken economy and country. He’s the solution to our war problem. We’ll ignore his (allegedly) racist remarks. We’ll ignore his total disregard to civil rights.

I’m not saying that Ron Paul’s ideas for fixing our economy are bad – they’re actually pretty enlightening if far-fetched. However, we cannot ignore all the damage he’ll do in the long-term. Still Paul-bots will tut-tut, call themselves better educated and follow the false prophet down the wrong side. It’s okay. That’s America. But for every Paul-bot who shouted “Ron Paul 2012” after Rick Perry released his “Strong” campaign ad, there’s a guy like me in the sidelines that’ll correct them – “Ron Paul hates homosexuals just as much Perry. He’s just better at speaking.”


Finished reading my reviewer’s copy of Rachel Kramer Bussel‘s Best Bondage Erotica 2012. Sadly, it took me so damn long to get through it because of my lack of time-management when it comes to studying for the GRE. As stated before, I’m a sex-crazed erotica freak (okay, maybe not in those terms). Found the book quite the read, however, just the sort of thing to read before drifting off into dreamland every night.

Again, Bussel manages to collect the stories that yank at our lusts. Each story is beautifully crafted by some of the best writers in the erotic genre. I’m yearning to see what the 2013 edition will contain – the patience is killing me.


It’s been a week since I’ve heard back from the library. It’s not the best feeling in the world, this anticipation. The last I heard, they were working on a background check. That shouldn’t take took long – I have no driving record. I’m still looking for other places and positions, but that job was just something that I needed and wanted. I can’t think of a better candidate for the job, then again, I think really highly of myself.


The last few weeks has been extensive studying the GRE manual. GRE, by the way, stands for Graduate Record Examinations. It’s essential if I’m to continue with my education – I mentioned I’m seeking my Masters in Library Science, right? Algebra was/is killing me, but what else is new? Geometry is fairly easy, most of what I learned in the past is coming to me gradually. As for the verbal, well, I need to start using the terms in my writing if I’m ever going to remember their definitions.


The kid is still growing and moving around in Jyg’s tummy. I can’t wait to meet him come April. The letters project is coming along okay, but not as well as I expected – best laid plans, am I right? I should start writing more when my mind clears up a bit. With all the things going around me – the election, debates, studying, worrying, etc. – my words fail me. Here’s looking to better days!


Why I Don’t Like Ron Paul

Far from the best man for this government

A friend of mine had the gall to say I was “nit-picking” reasons for disliking hating downright loathing Ron Paul. His reasons for liking him? He wants to end wars and end US dependency on other countries. I’m sure legalizing marijuana is somewhere in the mix, but one never uses that if one wants to be taken seriously – though, it is a serious matter, mind you.

Ron Paul, however, is a politician. And a bad one. Not only would he rather see you die if you don’t have health insurance, but he’ll say one thing – like he supports homosexuals – when he really believes something else – like not really, but sorta kinda supports homosexuals in the sense that they are allowed to be homosexuals, but not openly, like in the sense of getting married. He also supported “don’t ask, don’t tell,” which – if you watched Rick Perry’s “Strong” campaign ad – you’d know he’s part of a larger hate group known as the GOP – Jon Huntsman, excluded.

Abortion is always a hot button issue for me, as well. Ron Paul doesn’t want to do away with Roe v. Wade, per se, he believes states should make the decision whether to ban abortion. If we lived in a perfectly logical world, this would make sense. However, we don’t. We live in evangelical Christian America and women’s rights would be Snoop Dogg song in no time. This, in turn, also means he’s against embryonic stem cell research, which could benefit so many people’s lives – but as a Libertarian, the lives of others are no matter to him.

I’ll overlook his support for abstinence only education because he is a conservative and hating him for that is silly – besides, I’m a firm believer that if you want your kids raised by the education system, it’s your own fault when MTV is knocking on your door with a contract.

My friend is right, by the way, Ron Paul does want to end war. He also wants to withdraw the US from the UN and disband NATO. He has it in his head that the United States can protect herself without the help of other countries. Pretty much implying that we should stay out of other countries issues and war. Of course, that really helped a lot during both War Worlds, right? I mean, did everyone forget about The Zimmerman Telegraph and Pearl Harbor? It’s clear that Ron Paul and his supporters skipped American History during those important incidents that caused us to enter war. And I’m not saying that war is essential – the world can surely do without – but I’m not delusional enough to believe that by ignoring something, it’ll go away. If anything, it’ll only draw things to us without us knowing it.

And there is a laundry list of things that make Ron Paul the one of the worse people for the job as President of the United States of America. There’s the fact that he wants to end ENDA, that he voted against the Amber Alert, wants to drill drill drill in Alaska, believes that the United States is a Christian nation – even believes there is a war against Christmas (but conveniently ignores the war against Halloween), that he opposes the Civil Rights Act of 1964, he’s against the popular vote – probably because he never received it, wants to revive the Sodomy Laws, and he wants to build a wall along the US/Mexico border.

Oh, but I’m nit-picking. How silly of me. None of these things essentially matter because Ron Paul promises to end war and end our dependency on foreign oil – though that will never really happen, because, let’s face it, the oil companies will never allow it (it’s bad for business, you know). Let’s face it, the only reason people like him so much is the pot issue. Then again, it’s not like a politician ever lied to his supporters, right?


Another Word for Unemployed


I’m fighting the urge to just lie down down and die. Fighting the urge because I have to, not because I want to. Though, in some small aspects, I want a job. But the need is so much stronger. I need a job. I need a job with benefits. I need a job with some security. I need a job.

Don’t Worry, This Won’t be a Political Post

I worked odd, short jobs. From a door-to-door salesman to the clubhouse manager for a local baseball team. Hell, I even wrote porn at one time. And all those jobs were swell. They gave me money I could use when I wanted to spend something. On occasion, I still write posts for Blogvertise – not here, of course, but on Tumblr and the book blog.

But the hand I was dealt this year changes all that. There’s a certain amount of responsibility bestowed on me and I’ve got to get cracking. So I did what any prospecting job hunter would do. I churned out applications, uploaded resumes and hunted for good references.

A week later, I’ve got nothing to show for it. And it depresses me.

Only I Lied

And what makes me nervous about my lack of finding a job – one that uses skills I learned in either school or manual labor work – is that we’re drawing near the election year. And while I know Obama has made some progress – not enough to actually mean anything to the GOP – I fear that messiah – formerly known as Rick “the dick” Perry – might win, which means that the job market will crash, burn and the economy will cease to exist. I mean, just look at all he’s accomplished with Texas after George W. Bush stepped down.

And while Mitt Romney seems like the best candidate – is the best candidate, I should say – everyone in the Republican and Tea Parties are looking at Rick Perry as if he’s some Second Coming – which he is, just not the kind they’re hoping for.

So What’s a Former Freelance Writer/Contractor/Work-for-Hire/English Major to do?

Not give up, obviously. Like my mother said, I’m a survivor. No matter the obstacle thrown at me, I manage to come out of it unscathed. I figure things out; I adapt. The only problem is, that doesn’t seem to go anywhere on the application or resume. Adaptation isn’t a skill that doesn’t raise a couple of eyebrows. Neither is writing, apparently. At least, not in the Valley, outside a rather corrupt newspaper.

Still, I tumble on. Trying and defying those who get in my way. Wish me luck.