From “I Have Never Been Suicidal,” by Jared Singer 

never wanted to kill myself. 

I have always believed that life is a gift. 
Sometimes it’s a gift you don’t want, 
 
an itchy sweater you wish you could return. 
I have never wanted to kill myself, 
 
but I have wanted to die. 
Prayed for it. 

Jared Singer is an audio engineer and poet. His performances can be found at Button Poetry.  He is the author of Forgotten Necessities and Forgive Yourself These Tiny Acts of Self-Destruction, where you can find this poem.