Birthday
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“Come inside where it’s okay”
It’s the anticipation that gets me in the end. Anticipation’s the wrong word. Dread? Anxiousness? Staring at the clock. Checking my phone. The corner of my computer screen. Waiting. Ticking the minutes. Thoughts caught in my throat. Weighing my heart down. I end my thirtieth year with French toast and mini-sausages because it’s whatever. In Continue reading
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“…walked around my good intentions, and found that there were none…”
One year, last Friday, Shaun was born into the world. All the emotions I felt this year are new to me. As I sat by him in NICU, I stared at this little alien being looking up at me with so much wonder. Selflessness was never taught to me. And I never bothered to learn. Continue reading
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“You could not feel the value that I placed”
I think it’s safe to say now that Friday’s birthday celebration would have been way more enjoyable if I didn’t take the pills. There’s money wasted. For my birthday, Jyg, Esmer, Jerry and I went to see The Crazies. The movie was awesome. Afterward, we headed to the park to have pizza and cupcakes. The Continue reading
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“Another day older and deeper in debt”
I had a dream the other night. My late cousin Damien was sitting at a table with me and a few other people I couldn’t name. I can’t remember much of the dream except at one point, Damien stood up – throwing his chair in the process – slammed his fist upon the table and Continue reading
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“Once Upon a Time in my Life”
After last night’s inability to sleep, I passed out around seven-twenty only to wake up less than two hours later. I got dressed and went to Roadrunner stadium where I applied for an unknown position. Went to HEB and purchased two MexiCokes. One was guzzle down with lunch and the other split with Jyg later Continue reading
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“And the Night Mare Rides On”
Haven’t been able to sleep tonight for reasons I can’t explain. And that is beginning to be a constant theme in my life, in this current situation – whatever you want to call it. Miranda and I used to call these my little midlife crisis – I have them so when I do hit midlife, Continue reading
Chapin City Blues 